voila bonjour!

poor grandma, she had to watch her most loved grandchild got her heart broken, dumped, and cried like a garbage.

poor grandma, had to watch the one who clicked the most with her, gone so far far away just because she broke her heart and gotta move on.

it’s never what i wanted, was never my intention.. but i need to. we need this to happen. for my future. for our future.

i hope for the best plan God destined for the two of us. how i wish i could live with you forever, grandma. oh how i love you so.

i have no idea why it didn’t sell well :(

knowing i don’t really have enough money but still forcing to go.. 

it’s just that, i don’t feel like i have anything left in this city. he’s gone forever! i can’t just sit and stare at him, imagining how he’s been on the altar get married, or having a baby. i can’t bear it, i need something else to do. something better than staying in front of my computer creating things with my so-so creativity.

it’s a kick in the face, that news. that motivates me a lot but still not quite sure about the money problems.. 

if only there is another source or help, it might be possible :(

Hari ini, pukul ini, 4 tahun yang lalu.

Masih teringat apa yang kau lakukan waktu itu. Kata-kata yang kau ucap, yang membuatku sangat gembira dan berterima kasih pada Tuhan, karena kukira penantianku berakhir sudah.

I have nothing else to say. I am done being that depressed being left by you. I have no regret though, to be with you was the best day of my life. Even though everything is over by now, i still want to say thanks. At least, I ever tasted how sweet happiness feels like.

Dan semua itu tak akan pernah terjadi, tanpa apa yang kau lakukan empat tahun yang lalu.

Semoga kita akhirnya bisa bahagia, meskipun tak lagi bisa bersama.